Wasted Years

Here we are
There's nowhere else to go
And that's so far
From where we all could be
But you can't feel my disappearing
And you should take this for what it's worth

This is it
And it fits
And it feels like this is good enough for me
Could it be
That the grass is always green?

There you are
You dream of something better
What's so wrong
With what you thought was true and
All the colors are disappearing
But you should take this for what it's worth

This is it
And it fits
And it feels like this is good enough for me
Could it be
That the grass is always green?

This is it (this is it)
This is it (this is it)

If you feel like disappearing
You should take this for what it's worth

This is it
And it fits
And it feels like this is good enough for me
Could it be
That the grass is always green?

This is it
This is it

Staind

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
Cause you know, you know, you know

I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
(So far away)
Far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

All I wanted
I wanted you to stay
Cause I needed
I need to hear you say:
That I love you
(I love you)
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
(And I forgive you)
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me...never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me...never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me...never let me go

Nickelback

I'm finding my way back to sanity again,
Though I don't really know what I'm going to do when I get there.
Take a breath and hold on tight,
Spin around one more time,
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright,
Alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.
Yeah.
Where I want to be.

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth and I'm,
Trying to identify the voices in my head.
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel alive,
And break these calluses off of me,
One more time.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright,
Alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside your door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.
Yeah.

I don't want a thing from you.
Bet you're tired of me waiting for the scraps to fall off your table to the ground.

'Cause I just want to be here now.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright,
Alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.
Yeah.

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say and,
Even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright,
Alright with me.
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing,
Is where I want to be.
Yeah.
Where I want to be.
Where I want to be.

Lifehouse

Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and its bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly
Now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
And I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely
Now I can't let go of this dream
Can't believe that I feel

Good enough
I feel good enough
Its been such a long time coming, but I feel good

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
Pour real life down on me
Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough
Am I good enough
For you to love me too?

So take care what you ask of me
Cause I can't say no

Evanescence

Last time I talked to you
You were lonely and out of place
You were looking down on me
Lost out in space
We laid underneath the stars
Strung out and feeling brave
I watched the red orange glow
I watched you float away

Down here in the atmosphere
Garbage and city lights
You've gone to save your tired soul
You've gone to save our lives
I turned on the radio
To find you on satellite
I'm waiting for this sky to fall
I'm waiting for a sign
All we are
Is all so far

You're falling back to me
You're a star that I can see
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there

Hope you remember me
When you're home sick
And need a change
I miss your purple hair
I miss the way you taste
I know you'll come back some day
On a bed of nails I'll wait
I'm praying that you don't burn out
Or fade away
All we are
Is all so far

You're falling back to me
You're a star that I can see
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there

You're falling back to me
You're a star that I can see
I know you're out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there

You're falling back to me
You're a star that I can see
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there

You're falling back to me
I know
I know
You're falling out of reach
I know

Our Lady Peace

I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything,
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
We'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Taken all I could take,
And I cannot wait.
We're wasting too much time
Being strong, holding on.
Can't let it bring us down.
My life with you means everything,
So I won't give up that easily.
I'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
'Cause it's all misunderstood.
Well I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

We can't let this get away.
Let it out, let it out.
Don't get caught up in yourself.
Let it out.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Let's start over.
It's not over, yeah, yeah
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
Its not over

Daughtry

I know that life ain't always good to you.
I've seen exactly what it’s put you through
Thrown you around and turned you upside down and so you
You got to thinking there was no way out
You started sinking and it pulled you down
It may be tough you've got to get back up
Because you know that life ain't over yet
I'm here for you so don't forget
You can count on me
Cause’ I will carry you till you carry on

Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me
To hold you till that healing is done
And every time you fall apart
Well you can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me
To hold you till that feeling is gone

I wonder why nobody's waiting on you
I'd like to be the one to pull you through your darkest times
I'd love to be the light that finds you
I see a silver lining on your cloud
I'll pick you up whenever you fall down
Just take my hand and I will help you stand
Because you know that life ain't over yet
I'm here for you so don't forget
You can count on me
Cause’ I will carry you till you carry on

Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me
To hold you till the healing is done
And every time you fall apart
You can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me
To hold you till that feeling is

Gone so you can live today
Say so long to yesterday
Keep on counting on me
To carry you till you carry on

Carry on

You know that life ain’t over yet
I’m here for you so don’t forget
You can count on me cause
I will carry you till you carry on

Anytime you need someone
Somebody strong to lean on
Well you can count on me
To hold you till that healing is done
And every time you fall apart
You can hide here in my arms
And you can count on me
To hold you till that feeling is gone

Remember life ain’t over yet
I’m here for you so don’t forget
That you can count on me
To hold you till that feeling is gone

Remember life ain’t over yet
I’m here for you so don’t forget
That you can count on me
To hold you till that feeling is gone

Default

A hundred days have made me older,
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same
And all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby,
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby,
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby,
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me

The miles just keep rolling,
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated,
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby,
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby,
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, it's only you and me

Everything I know
And anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls,
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love

I'm here without you baby,
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby,
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, it's only you and me

I'm all alone

3 Doors Down

Wow... that's all I can say to sum up last night's event. Krissy won the night bringing her Heatwave championship tally to two. She stormed the table in the last half hour of play and won $20 (Ed - correct me if I'm wrong!) to bring her total to over $60... congrats sis! I walked away about $8 poorer but still had a great time.

Ed put on a great half time show - seeing him perform in front of a crowd is always great. The final act of his show was incredible and while I understand why, I'm 'enraged' there wasn't more!

The final highlight of the evening (for me anyway) actually occurred at about 5 this morning when Bea had to damn near carry Krissy up the stairs - those two together are a riot! I'm glad you two finally met and have such a great time when you're together.

Next year we have Hawaiian Luau Heatwave to look forward to... I feel like shopping for my flowered shirt now! This year's Heatwave is definitely one for the record books!

Just a quick note - the fifth installment of Ed's annual event kicked off promptly at 7. We're about to head into the fourth and final quarter (yep, there's quarters!) I'm down... probably not going to pull off a comeback either.

So my extra special secret - Bea's here! She flew in with her munchkin and has been (I hope) having a great time!

Game's on... I'm off to watch my stacks dwindle...

Lone and alone she lies, poor miss
Five flights from earth and one from heaven
Dark hair and eyes, she tries hard not to cry
But still alone she lies

And I never knew the reasons
There ain't no lover in your bed
But lady you were always some kind
Of woman to me

There ain't no gardens for my poor miss
There ain't no sunshine in April's spring
Just four dark walls, and light comes shadowly
Ah, poor miss, ah me!

And I still remember the sunlight on your face
Lady you were always some kind
Of woman to me

Lone and alone she lies, poor miss
Five flights from earth and one from heaven
Dark hair and eyes, she tries hard not to cry
But still alone she lies

And I never knew the reasons
There ain't no lover in your bed
But lady you were always some kind
Of woman to me

Big Head Todd & The Monsters

Against the sky
Streams of light
Call out to me and you

We leave as one
We've just begun
To find the solace we're due
This is the life we must choose

We will make a brand new start
From the pieces of our hearts
The break of day is before us

Cast your sorrows to the wind
Let the highway take us in
As we escape the disorder

This desert road
That we call home
This is our destiny
We'll chase the setting sun
As we outrun
A life of agony
God how we ache to be free

We will make a brand new start
From the pieces of our hearts
The break of day is before us

Cast your sorrows to the wind
Let the highway take us in
As we escape the disorder

We will make a brand new start
From the pieces of our hearts
The break of day is before us

Cast your sorrows to the wind
Let the highway take us in
As we escape the disorder

We'll make our way
We'll make our way
We'll make our way
We'll make our way

Alter Bridge

(I know you posted it, but it's too damn fitting for me to not follow suit.)

I sit alone and watch the clock
Trying to collect my thoughts
All I think about is you

And so I cry myself to sleep
And hope the devil I don’t meet
In the dreams that I live through

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

All the smiles you've had to fake
And all the shit you've had to take
Just to meet us here again

I never have the things to say
To make it all just go away
To make it all just disappear

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

It's my life
It's my choice
Hear my words
Hear my voice
And just believe

I sit alone and watch the clock
Trying to collect my thoughts
And all I think about is you

If you believe in me
Life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life's not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

Staind

Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
All I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
And say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And all I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
And say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Hurry I'm fallin'

All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be

And say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth savin' me
Hurry I’m falling

And say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth savin' me

Nickelback

Can't run away from love
If you cannot feel
Everything falls apart
In a tragedy

I am so far away from gone
I just wanna be here
Everyone forms a part
In my symphony

Can you feel this in your heart
Can you take it to your soul
I don't want you to pretend
I don't wanna be alone

Feels like I'm torn apart
And I cannot bleed
Caught in the web you made
This just can't be real

I am so far away from gone
I just wanna be here
Everyone falls apart
In this tragedy

Can you feel this in your heart
Can you take it to your soul
I don't want you to pretend
I don't wanna be alone

Can you feel this in your heart
Can you take it to your soul
I don't want you to pretend
I don't wanna be alone

I don't wanna be alone
Everyday... I'll live through this
Inside... I've changed
Everyday... I don't wanna be alone

Can you feel this in your heart
Can you take it to your soul
I don't want you to pretend
I don't wanna be alone

Can you feel this in your heart
Can you take it to your soul
I don't want you to pretend
I don't wanna be alone

Inside I've changed
Everyday I'll live through this
Inside I've changed
Everyday I'll live through this alone

I don't wanna be alone
I don't wanna be alone

Cold

I think I've walked too close to love
And now I'm falling in
Theres so many things this weary soul can't take
Maybe you just caught me by surprise
The first time that i looked into your eyes

There's a life inside of me
That I can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where I've never been
I don't care if I lost everything that I have known
It don't matter where I lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
Feel like home

This life ain't the fairy tale we both thought it would be
But I can see your smiling face as it's staring back at me
I know we both see these changes now
I know we both understand somehow

There's a life inside of me
That I can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where I've never been
I don't care if I lost everything that I have known
It don't matter where I lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
They feel like home
(hold on, you're home to me)

There's a life inside of me
That I can feel again
It's the only thing that takes me
Where I've never been
I don't care if I lost everything that I have known
It don't matter where I lay my head tonight
Your arms feel like home
They feel like home

3 Doors Down

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as I can take
And you're so independent
You just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you

Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting

Staind

The annual poker fest began at three with me being dealt pocket aces... a damn good way to start a poker game! I went on to win that hand and the next three hands (I think - might've been four). Then as usual I started making some bad choices and making some bad calls - started losing my winnings.

But as of 4:00 I'm up a whopping $3.50. Back into the fold!!!

UPDATE: 5:00 - another break... I'm still doing fair. We've added another player, Krissy's brother-in-law, Bob, to the table - more money to win!!!

UPDATE: Around 6:00 - We break for Ed's magic show, which of course was awesome. My brudda man performing magic is the best. Seriously. After the show everyone stepped out for a smoke and watched an encore performance. After the encore we were treated to a show of some of the neighborhood kids breaking a window on Ed and Krissy's neighbor's house. The kids scattered like roaches when the light goes on. Funny shit.

We went inside and were treated to a second encore by Ed - by far one of the coolest tricks I've seen - and I've seen a lot of Ed's tricks. Fucking awesome.

It's about quarter to seven and were heading back to the table. I'm still doing good. I'm at $36.75 - like I said not bad.

UPDATE: 9:00 - The game is officially over... we haven't cashed out yet, but I'm certain that Krissy has taken the championship. Again. But I didn't do bad. Better than last year since I busted in under three hours.

UPDATE: After 9 - Whoa! I was wrong - Krissy didn't take it... I did with $46.75, winning by $2.50.

$2.50. I feel kind of cheap.

Ed has declared this year's Heatwave a success which is most excellent since this was almost the last Heatwave. But Heatwave V is on for next year - 7/12/2008. I know where I'll be.

It doesn't matter if I win or lose - it's all about good food, good friends, and a damn good time.

My thanks to Ed, Krissy, Treena, and Bob - it was a blast sitting around the table and playing with you all.

I couldn't help myself.

I got the right cap on the first try.

Go me!!

Bonus point if anyone knows where I got the audio from.

(But I think Ed is the most likely person to get it...)

Audio file

(Ed or Krissy... if I get something messed up or leave something out either call, email me, or post it in the comments)

Last night I went with Ed and Krissy to Ed's parent's house for a Christmas party. That's where we met Mel.

Mel is a "psychic". Evidently in the past, he has demonstrated his "powers" with a great deal of accuracy. Last night, he fucked himself over and tried to play out his act with the three of us, Krissy in particular.