July 13, 2005
Abyss of Darkness
Shadows surrounding me tight, as if their grasp is suffocating me... I can't breathe, I can't see, there is nothing but a swirl of wind against my face. I feel the movement engulfing me, an endless fall into darkness. How long will this last? I don't know. I can't see a thing, I just feel the wind, the knots in my stomach are so tangled deep inside, I feel I'm going to burst. I wave my arms, to ease the shock, but nothing is working, I feel I'm going to die. I try to balance against the pressure, is there an end to all this repression? I'm scared I cannot lie, I don't know what's at the end. I want to just wake up and pretend it is all unreal. I keep falling into the darkness, I can't see a thing, I'm just falling and falling, waiting for everything to come. Wake up! I tell myself. I can't, because it's reality and not a dream nor nightmare. The wind is getting sharper, it stings my face, my arms, my legs, it's coming on faster. Is it about to end? I don't know! I can't breathe, I can't see, I am suffocating deep.
