August 29, 2005
Fragile
It's just amazing how short and delicate life truly is. We think we are invincible and that we have our life ahead of us. One too many times we wake up and not appreciate what we have. We bitch about everything, but we never take the time to truly value family and friends. I think of it as a wake up call. A summon to snap out of it and learn to live in the present, do not be afraid to cry nor to laugh. Hug that person and tell them that you appreciate them, because you never know what tomorrow brings. I try to live life like that, and sometimes I let insignificant things get in the way of that. Is there truly a balance. A person wants to apraise what he/she has and hold it close to him/her, but then there are times that everything else is just pushing against them that they can't see what it is that truly matters to them. We lose focus! We are human, that's what's supposed to happen, if we were perfect we certainly would not be where we are today. We would not suffer and we would not grieve. I still don't know why things happen to the best of us. I don't see why a person must suffer when they are so good, when all they want to be is happy. According to Dr. Betancourt, suffering is supposed to remind you that your ultimate purpose in life is to become one with God, or whoever or whatever you believe the supreme being in your life is. But it was not only Dr. Betancourt that said that, it was Descartes and St. Augustine that felt that way. Well, Descarte talked more about being a perfect being, and if that was truly attainable. It could be, but that happens when you die. He said that if we were to be perfect then we would be God and we would not be here. My favorite saying of his, "I think, therefore, I am". I love it! And it's true! I'll get more into it in another instance. Right now I just want to finish pondering about life and how everything one knows can be wiped out in one moment. Life altering events, they have a purpose, but it's so hard to understand. I know everyone has a purpose in this world, and now my question is why are some people here for short periods of time? You know, I ask myself that everyday, but I still don't get it. I don't truly understand it. And maybe I never will. That's the limitation of being human, we can't let go and see things differently. That's because we are not used to seeing beyond the picture in front of us. We don't look deeper, we are content with the surface. I can see why, it's exhausting trying to understand something that is hard to grasp. I guess that's why we only use 10% of our brains. We are just lazy, or maybe too afraid. Who knows?!?
