March 8, 2006
Enigma
The saying "you can't have your cake and eat it too" turns true for many of us. It does not matter the aspect of our lives we look into. We have so many dreams and aspirations, but we always end up sacrificing something or someone in order to pursue these. I wonder if there will ever be a balance between things. For every action there is a reaction. For every dream there is a sacrifice. The sad part is that you, the dreamer, the sacrificer, ends up in a bittersweet victory. Yes, it is great that you got there, you achieved what you wanted, but in the process you gave up the one person you loved, the things that you treasured. Sometimes I like to believe that in some alternate plane of existence, there will be a time in my life when I can accomplish my goals in my professional life and have all the people that I love with me. I usually like to think that if it is meant to be it will work out, and if it does not work out then it was not for me. But why? I also like to think that things happen for a reason. That is always a tricky one because you never quite seem to grasp that one. You end up going through pain and sorrow in order to reach happiness. I do not get it. I assume that in order for a person to truly appreciate the success of their achievements they must go through some sort of pain and suffering. If you did not go through such then you would end up taking things for granted. That is human nature. If you get everything you want, without any sacrifice, then you do not appreciate things as much. I can see that. But there are also people that truly appreciate everything and everyone in their life. You find the man or the woman that everyday is thankful for being blessed with a wonderful loved one, with a family, with a job. I guess the purpose is to get people to that point. That is why many sacrifice one thing or another in their lives, to be able to learn to appreciate what they have been blessed with. Some people think of it as luck. I don't. If you say it's all luck then that means that you have no control of it. I like to think that I have some sort of control over my destiny. That is the reason why I make decisions, because I have choices. The decisions I make today are the ones that put me where I will be tomorrow, in two weeks, in six months, and forty years from now. I still cannot understand life and how it works, and the forces behind it. You have theology and you have science, and then you have the unknown. How are things in one's life explained? All is nothing but an enigma.
